getting started….

We all have dreams and goals we want to accomplish. The funny thing about dreams and goals is that they live rent free in our head. They are part of that inner dialogue; the duality. One voice tells us to dream big. To write the book, to travel the world, to become the coach. The other voice procrastinates out of fear. Fear of the moments of discomfort. Fear of judgement. Fear of the unknown. Fear of rejection. Fear of failure. It says ‘You can’t do that. You’re not capable.’ This is where procrastination takes over and I tell myself. I’ll work on it tomorrow. And tomorrow turns into three days, three weeks, three months, and three years.

But there has always been that other gnawing voice in my head that sometimes speaks louder. It always asks the same question. ‘What if…” “What if I could write and publish that book.” I have to let go of perfection and focus on progress.

When I thought about auditioning to be a [solidcore] coach, I was so scared. I didn’t think i could get through the 2 minute recorded video, the in person live audition or the intense training. But I pushed through. P!nk’s song ‘Trustfall’ was my anthem. In the music video for the song, there is a moment where she tells the main character, a 20 something year old girl to, "Just do it, whatever it is, and then boom – it's gone. The fear is gone,” That was my inspiration to push through. Ever since then, I haven’t looked back.

What’s the difference between discipline and consistency?

The hardest part for me as a writer is actually sitting down, gathering my thoughts and having the discipline to stick it out when the words are hard to come by. To stare at a blank screen until the words spill out. I’ve thought about publishing this website for a while, much like my book. I created and recreated. I’ve felt inspired and then discouraged. Then the ‘what if’s’ whisper start to speak louder.

Whether I am working on this website, writing my book, coaching, or working out, I’ve found the key to everything is consistency. For me, discipline is a decision point. Deciding to devote one hour a day to work on my website, refine by book or workout. It’s a choice. Consistency is actually following through with that choice over and over again. It’s about showing up for yourself and remembering what you said you wanted. To me, without consistency there is no discipline. We can have the discipline to decide to do something once, but without consistency, and repetition in the boring moments where we refine and practice we will never move closer towards our dreams.

With my writing, I still struggle to stay disciplined and consistent. But the procrastination comes from a place of fear, rather than the lack of focus. The hardest part is getting started and letting myself be vulnerable enough to speak with my heart and release it out into the world.

So BOOM, here it is…my first blog post!